Good Girls Struggle in Secret [How Shame and Silence Are Keeping Us in Sin]

“You’re so good. You wouldn’t understand.”

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had people say this kind of thing to me. And I guess I can understand why. I have always been the kind of girl that had every outward appearance of piety. Being a preacher’s kid, a minister’s girlfriend, a missionary’s wife, a Bible class teacher, a there-every-Sunday-unless-terribly-ill-church-goer, and an enthusiastic debater on all topics regarding morality and religion – it would have appeared to those around me that I had it all straight. The perfect example of a young Christian woman.

After all, a girl that attends every Sunday and is so active mustn’t have any struggles or doubts in regards to her Christianity, right?

I thought so. I thought that because I grew up with Christian parents, attended every Sunday, and knew what the Bible said to be right and wrong, I shouldn’t have any struggles or experience doubts. Not any serious ones anyway. Serious struggles were for those who didn’t know what the Bible said, I thought – and was often told.

And yet I struggled with so many things and had many times where I doubted.

All the expectations from people made my struggles all the more difficult. I was the preacher’s kid with all the expectations and eyes watching me. Girls like me weren’t supposed to have problems. And since I thought that other girls didn’t struggle like I did, I felt alone – terribly alone, depraved, and ashamed. I was sure that if I told someone about my struggles, they would think me strange – and sadly that is what I found the few times I did try. 

And so I had a choice – shame or secrecy. I more often that not chose the latter, after finding that confession rarely went well for me.

Because good girls aren’t supposed to struggle. 

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Sadly, I know a lot of girls feel this same way. They’re the good girls who post scriptures on their Facebook page and go to church every Sunday, yet they are struggling with depression, suicidal thoughts, low self-worth, pornography, lust, fantasies, eating disorders, anxiety, lying, and such like. They are told that “good Christians” don’t struggle with things like this – and so they think they are alone. They are told that if you just read the Scriptures and pray, you won’t struggle – and so they pray and read their Bibles and think that they must be some kind of crazy weirdo to still be struggling. They want to open up to others and get help – but in a church culture where sin is treated as unexpected and shocking, it becomes very difficult to confess your faults.

And so a lot of them remain alone, and they continue to struggle in silence and secret shame.



I have been thinking on this for a while, and I think I see the problem. I have heard the call to confession so many times and have seen it responded to by so few. Usually, whenever it is responded to, it is a simple, “Please pray for me, I’m struggling.” When it’s not that, it’s a shocking, shameful sin that everyone talks about and more often than not causes that person’s reputation to be tainted forever.

“Oh, him, he’s that guy that cheated on his wife. Is he preaching? Oh, well, probably better that he’s not I guess.”

I have heard preacher and teacher after preacher and teacher say, “We’re all sinners, we all sin,” but I’ve never heard any confess their own specific struggles without having to leave the ministry. All of us are either so ambiguous when we tell our struggles and sins, or pretend that we don’t have struggles with temptation and sin. Then, when a specific struggle comes out, we are all shocked and horrified and whisper behind closed doors: “I had no idea! How on earth did this happen? And to a preacher/preacher’s wife/preacher’s kid?!

I’ve even seen people on Facebook calling men and women with certain sins various colourful names and saying how despicable people who commit these certain sins are. 

With all of this, it is no wonder that we hide our sins. Who wants to confess when no one else is or when those who confess are branded for life with the very sin they’re trying to give up?

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I used to be afraid to talk about my struggles and I know that for me, personally, this caused me to struggle more. In the past, I have gone to counselling for a particular struggle and through that avenue found understanding, help, and healing. I have been told in the past that counselling outside of the church isn’t the right option – the Bible and Christians should be enough. I agree with that, they should – but here’s the thing: often confession just isn’t happening because community and compassion are lacking. 

Satan is using all of this against us. He loves loneliness, secrecy, and shame and he wants us to hold onto them because that’s how sin thrives.

There was a situation in the church in Corinth where a man had slept with his father’s wife. His mother? His step-mother? We don’t know, but either way it’s pretty shocking. Such a sin was “not even tolerated among the pagans” (1 Corinthians 5:1). When this man repented of his sin, Paul had to encourage the church to let his past stay in the past. He encouraged them to forgive him and comfort him, or else sorrow would overtake him and cause him to give up in despair. 

” For such a one, this punishment by the majority is enough, so you should rather turn to forgive and comfort him, or he may be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. So I beg you to reaffirm your love for him. For this is why I wrote, that I might test you and know whether you are obedient in everything. Anyone whom you forgive, I also forgive. Indeed, what I have forgiven, if I have forgiven anything, has been for your sake in the presence of Christ, so that we would not be outwitted by Satan; for we are not ignorant of his designs” (2 Corinthians 2:6-11). 

Did you catch that last verse? This man confessed, and while he wanted to make his life right, the shame brought on by over-zealous brethren threatened to turn him away. We shouldn’t be surprised by the fact that Satan uses the discouragement that comes from other Christians to turn Christians away from the church. When we bring shame upon those who repent by failing to properly forgive them, we are allowing Satan to outsmart us. He knows we need community and will definitely take advantage of the lack of it. 

The way we should react to honest confessions – when someone turns with tears to look for grace and forgiveness – is with complete forgiveness. Any other response can discourage them to the point where they are overcome with sorrow, guilt, and shame and are tempted to give up the fight. God gives grace freely for our many, many faults and we should extend that grace to others. 

We should realise that at any point it could be us. While we may not struggle with the same sin, there is certainly something that we struggle with. We need to ave compassion, extend grace, and seek to carry the load as much as possible, so that others will be there to do the same for us. 

“Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted. Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ” (Galatians 6:1, 2). 



I said that I agreed that the Bible and Christians should be enough. That’s true – they should be – but telling people that they need to “read their Bibles more” when they are struggling isn’t helping a lot.  

Why? It’s not because the Bible can’t help, but because by telling people simply to read their Bibles you’re actually missing one of the Bible’s strongest teachings on the church: the fact that we need one another.

Christianity wasn’t meant to be lived alone. Whether we could live it alone or not is a moot point. The fact is that if we were to really consult our Bibles for how to deal with our struggles, we would see that the Bible asks us to look outside itself for community and compassion. It isn’t supposed to be that we simply read our Bible and find healing in it alone.

How can we create a culture where people don’t feel alone in their struggles?

  • Confess your faults to others (James 5:19). We are told to confess our faults to one another. The lack of this is what keeps people thinking they are alone. It takes courage to be the first one – but until the brave of us stand up and start, we’ll always feel alone. Trust God’s wisdom when He tells you that you will find healing in confession. Don’t let secrecy cause you to struggle more than you already are.
  • Remember that there’s no shame in repenting of sin (1 John 1:7-11). The shame is in continuing in unrepentant sin. Renewing ourselves is a constant process. 
  • Encourage openness among those who are close to you. Encourage your spouse to be open with you and don’t be angry when he or she is. Parents, encourage openness from your daughters and sons. Talk about your struggles with your close friends. Let those you love know early that they can come to you with any struggle for help. Don’t assume that they will never fall. Encouraging others to be open and honest so that they can deal with sin in their lives correctly will help every relationship you have. You can’t bear burdens if you don’t know what they are.
  • Don’t react in disgust when there is confession and repentance. This world is full of sin – we are surrounded by it. Should it be any surprise when our son or daughter tells us they are struggling with something? There is temptation literally everywhere. We are told to confess our faults and so it shouldn’t be a shock when people do. Sin is shocking and shameful – but repentance takes the disgust and shame away. 
  • Be gentle with those who are trying to change (Galatians 6:1, 2). We shouldn’t think that we are above sin. We may not understand someone else’s particular sin, but we certainly can understand our own struggles.
  • Extend your full fellowship and forgiveness to those who are repentant (2 Corinthians 2:7-11). Satan will take advantage of the discouragement someone feels when they are trying to better themselves but others are looking down on them. I have seen this happen so many times. Don’t let the repentant drown in sorrow. Forgive them fully – God already has.
  • Remember that you have sinned and react with the same compassion and understanding you would want (1 John 1:8; Matthew 7:12). If you have repented, God has forgiven you for your sin – but you still had that struggle. If you don’t understand their particular struggle, try to be understanding and try to find them the support they need. God doesn’t rank sins and neither should we, He places the murderer and the prostitute beside liars and the spiritually fearful (cf. Revelation 21:8).
  • Remember that God is Judge (James 4:12). Where there is repentance, He decrees grace and forgiveness. We have no right to make people feel the shame that the Lord has already taken it away.


I no longer have any shame because Christ has taken that away. He has removed my sins as far away as he possibly could. Even if others see a reason for shame, if I am a Christian and if I have confessed, repented, and am walking in the light, no one can cause me to feel that shame. I am clean and white – covered in Christ’s blood. 

“For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His steadfast love toward those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far does He remove our transgressions from us. As a Father shows compassion to His children, so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust” (Psalm 103:11-14).

“And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the LORD your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed” (Joel 2:27).

“But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin […] If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:7, 9). 

Don’t let Satan keep you in loneliness, shame, and secrecy. If you are struggling, find someone who you can reach out to so you can find healing. Get help for your specific struggle. Find others who’ve overcome it and seek their advice. God created His church to be a support for you as you struggle through this sinful world. 

You are certainly not alone. I’ve also struggled with many things. I’ve been there. Every Christian you see has been through a struggle with sin of some kind. Good girls struggle too. 

But here’s the beautiful thing: we don’t have to continue to struggle in secrecy and shameGod has taken that shame away from us and given us grace.

Let’s give the same to ourselves – and each other. 


11 thoughts on “Good Girls Struggle in Secret [How Shame and Silence Are Keeping Us in Sin]

  1. I liked this post so much. What strikes me about James 5:16 is the second part of the verse – confess your sins and pray for each other ‘so that you may be healed’. Confession brings about healing. In our church we have a strong practice of confession because before someone can get baptised, they have to come into the light by confessing their sins. And the people studying with the person begin – they confess their own sins first so the person studying will be less terrified.

    When I was a young Christian, I was afraid to confess, even though I still did it because I saw the biblical reasons for it. My husband (when we were dating) showed me a scripture that put an end to that fear in Genesis 6:5. God saw that EVERY inclination of man’s heart was ONLY evil ALL the time. We shouldn’t be surprised by the evil thoughts and we shouldn’t expect to be good if every inclination of our heart is only evil all the time. There is that saying – something like, “But for grace, there go I.” If I am different than another, it’s only by God’s grace. I’m unsurprised by my sin, but I cling even more tightly to Jesus. My wholehearted desire is that he shall say of me what he said to Nathaniel: “Here is a true Israelite in whom there is nothing false.” 🙂

    This is such an important issue and I’m so glad you expressed it so thoroughly and so beautifully.


  2. Beautifully written and such a vital message. I have been wrestling with this in my own life. Confession truly breaks the power of hidden sin; by speaking the truth, bringing it to the light, half the battle is won. As you say, we were never meant to struggle on our own. Thanks for the reminders about grace, confession, and freedom.


  3. YES! Thank you so much for writing this with such truth and love! As a preacher’s kid, I can totally relate to the struggles you faced. This is a beautifully written post! ❤


  4. Trying to look like the perfect church girl builds walls around our hearts, between us and other believers and between us an God, and makes it difficult for us to connect with those still lost in their sin because we give the impression that we’ve somehow become enough to earn it ourselves.


  5. Thankyou – this was just what I needed to read. Having been the “good girl” my whole life I have struggled to confess sin and seek help. Recently I have reached out for help and have been met with extreme grace and forgiveness amd am in the process of restoration. Satan will not keep me in shame!


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